yes im still here! and im so glad to be able to tell all of you THANK YOU!!! omg, i have changed my opnion on life so much in the past week, you dont understand, its like i went from being 10, to like 50... or at least thats what it feels like... and i hope all of you dont say anything mean to me because im so young, because i know i dont know everything, not even close, but i think that for my age, and the situations im in right now, i have to have more mental stability then alot of people older then me. and no one can tell me differently! i am the happiest person right now. well, what ended up happening was no, i didnt do it. i have decided its gotta wait for the right time. and i told him how i was feeling and how i changed my mind, but i still wasnt sure if i wanteed to do it or not, and all he did was comfort me and he told me he didnt want to anymore, and if in the future, if i had no doubts, to let him know, and he was really happy with our relationship right now the way it was, and hes glad we didnt also.. we both want it to be more then that. but i am very happy with him. so yes..we will go back to holding hands! lol i feel like im draging him back to the day when he was a hippie! lol but hes not that old! . well, i just want to tell all of you who helped me out THANK YOU!!! and to tell you the truth, if you hadnt said all of this to me, i probably would have done it and regreted it.! THANKS A BUNCH XOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOX MUAH****