Hey Romy... first off, really sorry to hear that The guy is the asshole in this situation, and you are better off alone than with a lame ass poor excuse for a boyfriend. Now, the best thing you can do at the moment is to not let yourself sit around and do nothing and think about it. Do whatever is "your thing" ... if it's art, paint something, if it's listening to Danny Tenaglia tear it up at Vinyl, go there and dance your ass off... you get the idea. And you said that he was only your friend - go find new people to hang out with. Hell, grab some CP'ers to go hang out with! A good night of dancing always helps And I'm sure anyone who's in NY right now (I'm not unfortunately) would be more than happy to have you in their crowd. Build up some new people. Unfortunately, getting up and doing things at a time like this is *very* difficult, but "action is the antidote to despair" (I forget whose quote that is, but it's true!) so please don't let yourself sit and wallow in this, that is the WoRsT thing you could do! Good luck babe!