Sometimes, like lst week..I have these thoughts about "Maybe I'll take a pill..just one..."...being a girl who has only smoked pot maybe...8 times, an never tried anything else, it can be INCREDIBLY tempting....especially because all of my friends have been tripping, rolling, blah blah blah since highschool. My best friend says that I should, all my friends want to be there when it happens, but for some reason they don't realize that ITS NEVER GOING TO. At 15, I was an alcoholic. I got over that, and it took a really long time. I am proud of my acheivements, and never want to be in another situation like that again. many young people have trouble saying no to something after theyve already agreed to it once (girls, think about after youve slept with a guy, and ten dont want to do it again, howhrd it is to say that..lol)...after deciding that I would roll for my first time fr scot project, I realized what it is that makes me who I am. I am me because I love everything. I don't need to be fucked up to see beauty in things, or to feel good. I am me beause when everybody else said yes, I said no. I am me, because I make my own rules. I have no problem with people who do drugs, but I'm glad that I don't. I'm glad that I realized all of this before the weekend. Now maybe I'll hae a couple of dinks instead. I'm to the point where I can drink socially again. How proud am I??? SO PROUD.:spin::grin2: :grin2: