maggiespaz

Okay..when is enough??? My best friend and family member is an addict. He has been for the past 2 years. I hardly recognize him. He thinks he has not changed, but he has! I have never seen anything like this before. He is moody, forgetful, mean, etc.... BUT he is so darn cordial to all his friends... what happened here?? He has lost all interest in everything. He thinks I am overreacting and at first I belived him.. I am 27 with a masters in education. I have been teaching for 4 years now. I went to college in Ohio and partied so I can understand this somehwat, but not like this!!! The thing that ticks me off the most is that he has gotten me to try crap I never would before..like x, acid, pot, otc pills.... I just wanted to be close again and I thought heck if I cannot beat him then I may as well join him.. well it always makes me feel like crap afterwards..not sure why??? Maybe because I like the drugs, maybe because I preach to kids to just say no...heck I do not know anymore.. I am finally moving to another state to get the flip away from him.. he is such a manipulator... I hate him!!! Why the hell did this happen to our relationship... I just needed to vent and I can not tell my other friends who have no clue about this part of my life......

Hey thanks for the info!!!

WOW!! I know how ya feel. My brother and best friend began taking drugs 2 years ago. It all started with pot then escalated into beans, cocaine, acid, etc.... Over the past 2 years I have experimented myself.. go figure I said I would never do this..bam it happens..hell what is my motove..to be close agin to someone i do not even know?? he is so messed up and hasen't a clue..just last night i said fine i will trip with ya..one last night befoe i move..god i just want to be close agin..do u even know me??? so i tripped... 3rd time in my life...i also did hippy crack..what the heck was that??? never experimented something like that...ya see drugs mess with people and i hate that!!! drugs change relationships and cause lots of hurt... when we came to this morning i wanted to go to the beach and drink to come down..this was mind u the original plan..yes made by satn himslef..my bro@ but no he wanted to buy some cocaine..i never did that and still have not..so he whined begged and pleased...god what i did last night was for him why can't he see this??? i wish i had never tried anything...what u do not knwo will NEVER hurt u but once u know the feeling you cannot let it go... music really can make me go back to beans or last night o\r whatevr but i have a brain and i do not keep going for more even though the memory is always there..

Hi. I hope I make sense:( .. I am feeing reallu out of it. Last night I enjoyed a long night of watching Fantasia and Vanilla Sky.. anyhow I am now UP and cannot get it together. I found a pill on the floor. I haven't a clue what it is and I am wishful thinking it will help me relax..if anyonw knows what it is or has any suggestions to calm me down please respond..thank u..small lighy blusih greenish pill watson 747 written on it