as someone younger than probably all of you who still loves the club scene, its kind of depressing reading some of these posts that kind of have that "been there done that" feel to them. it kinda takes the wind out of your sails. well it just brings up the question... god..am i going to look back on these years and just shake my head? i dunno.., i've made a conscious effort to party both ways just to prove to myself that i am not only going to clubs just to have somewhere to be fucked up. and i've found out i can stay out just as long and have just as much fun sober.. so that makes me feel better. but as far as the drugs and clubs thing go, most of my friends are at least 2 to three years older than me and they've "been there and done that." so when i'm like ... hey guys! so and so is going to be at the roxy next week!!! and have this big smile on my face and jump up and down... and they're like.. oh thats nice. .. ....so i kind of feel like a fool. and then you have my other group of friends who are like.. umm..we can't come out. we can't find pills. so i'll say ..well come out sober ..it'll be fun!!! and they'll be like.. umm.. we can't do that. sorry. and that realllly disappoints me. what i'm trying to say is... i hope this isn't just a phase for me but if it is.. i hope i wont regret any of it or not be able to go out just because i don't have any drugs..and when someone comes up to me in a few years and says, "blah blah blah is at sound factory!!" and jumps up and down in excitement in front of me, i won't look at them and shake my head. instead i'll jump up and down with them.