ladyshady Posted May 5 Report Share Posted May 5 You say I only hear what I want toYou say I talk so all the time soAnd I thought what I felt was simpleAnd I thought that I don't belongAnd now that I am leavingNow I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed youYeah yeah, I missed youYou say I only hear what I want to:I don't listen hard, don't pay attention to the distance that you're runningTo anyone, anywhereI don't understand if you really care, I'm only hearing negative: no, no, noSo I turned the radio on, I turned the radio upAnd this woman was singing my song:Lover's in love and the other's run awayLover is crying 'cause the other won't staySome of us hover when we weep for the other who wasDying since the day they were bornWell, well, this is not thatI think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrownAnd I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sureYou try to tell me that I'm cleverBut that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with youYou said that I was naive and I thought that I was strongI thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed youYeah, I miss youYou said, "you caught me 'cause you want me and one day you let me go"You try to give away a keeper, or keep me'Cause you know you're just scared to loseAnd you say, "Stay."You say I only hear what I want to Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
naughtybabe Posted May 5 Report Share Posted May 5 Originally posted by ladyshady You say I only hear what I want toYou say I talk so all the time soAnd I thought what I felt was simpleAnd I thought that I don't belongAnd now that I am leavingNow I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed youYeah yeah, I missed youYou say I only hear what I want to:I don't listen hard, don't pay attention to the distance that you're runningTo anyone, anywhereI don't understand if you really care, I'm only hearing negative: no, no, noSo I turned the radio on, I turned the radio upAnd this woman was singing my song:Lover's in love and the other's run awayLover is crying 'cause the other won't staySome of us hover when we weep for the other who wasDying since the day they were bornWell, well, this is not thatI think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrownAnd I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sureYou try to tell me that I'm cleverBut that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with youYou said that I was naive and I thought that I was strongI thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed youYeah, I miss youYou said, "you caught me 'cause you want me and one day you let me go"You try to give away a keeper, or keep me'Cause you know you're just scared to loseAnd you say, "Stay."You say I only hear what I want to Omg I use to go crazy everytime I heard this song..Lisa Loeb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladyshady Posted May 5 Report Share Posted May 5 An old man turned ninety-eightHe won the lottery and died the next dayIt's a black fly in your chardonnayIt's a death row pardon two minutes too lateIsn't it ironic... don't you thinkChorus:It's like rain on your wedding dayIt's a free ride when you've already paidIt's the good advice that you just didn't takeWho would've thought... it figuresMr. Play It Safe was afraid to flyHe packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-byeHe waited his whole damn life to take that flightAnd as the plane crashed down he thought"Well, isn't this nice." And Isn't this ironic ... don't youthink?Repeat ChorusWell life has a funny way of sneaking up on youWhen you think everything's okay and everything's going rightAnd life has a funny way of helping you out whenYou think evertyhing's gone wrong and everything blows upIn your faceA traffic jam when you're already lateA no-smoking sign on your cigarette breakIt's like 10,000 spoons when all you need is a knifeIt's meeting the man of my dreamsand then meeting his beautiful wifeAnd isn't it ironic... don't you thinkA little too ironic.. and yeah I really do think...Repeat ChorusWell life has a funny way of sneaking up on youAnd life has a funny funny way of helping you outhelping you out Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted May 6 Author Report Share Posted May 6 she's got a smilethat it seems to mereminds me of childhood memorieswhen everything was as crazed as the bright blue skynow and thenwhen i see her faceit takes me away to that special placeand if i stare to longi'll probably break down and cryWhoa...ooh sweet child of mineOh oh oh oh sweet love of mineShe's got eyes of the bluest skiesthat if they thought of rainI'd hate to look into those eyesand see an ounce of painher hair reminds me of a warm safe placewhere as a child i'd hideand pray for the thunder and the rainto quietly pass me byWhoa...ooh sweet child of mineOh oh oh oh sweet love of mineWhoa...ooh sweet child of mineOh oh oh oh sweet love of mine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted May 6 Author Report Share Posted May 6 when i find myself watching the timei never think about all the funny things you've saidi feel like it's deadwhere is it leading me nowi turn around in the still of the roomknowing this, is when i'm gonna make my movecan't wait any longand i'm feeling stronger but oh...just as i walkto the doori can feel your emotionit's pulling me backjust a lil' more back....back to love youoh no....caught up in the middlei cryjust a littlewhen i think of letting gooh no...gave up on the riddlei cry just a littlewhen he plays the piano...in the darkhe holds me closelike a theif of the hearthe plays a melodywanna tear me all apartsilence is brokenno words are spoken....but oh....just as i walkto the doori can feel your emotionit's pulling me backjust a lil' more back....back to love youoh no....caught up in the middlei cryjust a littlewhen i think of letting gooh no...gave up on the riddlei cry just a littlewhen he plays the piano...in the dark Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted May 6 Author Report Share Posted May 6 how did you knowcause i never toldyou found outi got a crush on youno more charadesmy hearts' been displayedyou found outi got a crush on youyou must've heard itfrom my best friendshe's always talking when she should be listeningcan't keep a secretto save her lifebut still i trusted herwith all i felt insidei never knewa rumor could spread so fastcause now theword is outall over townthat i'm longing for youhow did you knowcause i never toldyou found outi got a crush on youno more charadesmy hearts' been displayedyou found outi got a crush on youmaybe i was the one who left a tracewas there a message written on my facewere my emotions so easily readthat you would know my love before a word was saidwas it my eyesthat let you know you had control?because the way you movewith yourself, so sureyou knew i would surrenderhow did you knowcause i never toldyou found outi got a crush on youno more charadesmy hearts' been displayedyou found outi got a crush on you... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted May 6 Author Report Share Posted May 6 If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?If you are not mine then why does your heart return my callIf you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at allI never know what the future brings But I know you are here with me nowWe’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life withI don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understandIf I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?I don’t know why you’re so far away But I know that this much is trueWe’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life withAnd I wish that you could be the one I die withAnd I pray in you’re the one I build my home withI hope I love you all my lifeI don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understandIf I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I amIs there any way that I can stay in your arms?‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath awayAnd I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or rightAnd though I can’t be with you tonightAnd know my heart is by your sideI don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understandIf I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I amIs there any way that I could stay in your arms Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladyshady Posted May 6 Report Share Posted May 6 I had no choice but to hear youYou stated your case time and againI thought about itYou treat me like I'm a princessI'm not used to liking thatYou ask how my day wasYou've already won me over in spite of meDon't be alarmed if I fall head over feetDon't be surprised if I love you for all that you areI couldn't help itIt's all your faultYour love is thick and it swallowed me wholeYou're so much braver than I gave you credit forThat's not lip serviceYou've already won me over in spite of meDon't be alarmed if I fall head over feetDon't be surprised if I love you for all that you areI couldn't help itIt's all your faultYou are the bearer of unconditional thingsYou held your breath and the door for meThanks for your patienceYou're the best listener that I've ever metYou're my best friendBest friend with benefitsWhat took me so longI've never felt this healthy beforeI've never wanted something rationalI am aware nowI am aware nowYou've already won me over in spite of meDon't be alarmed if I fall head over feetDon't be surprised if I love you for all that you areI couldn't help itIt's all your fault Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladyshady Posted May 6 Report Share Posted May 6 I never thought, I'd die aloneI laughed the loudest who'dve known?I traced the cord back to the wallNo wonder it was never plugged in at allI took my time, I hurried upThe choice was mine I didnt think enoughIm too depressed to go onYou'll be sorry when Im gone...I never conquered, rarely came16 just held such better daysDays when I still felt aliveWe couldnt wait to get outsideThe world was watching, hate to tryThe tour was over, we survivedI couldn't wait til I got homeTo pass the time in my room aloneI never thought I'd die aloneAnother six months Ill be unknownGive all my things to all my friendsYou'll never set foot in my room againYou'll close it off, board it upRemember the time I spilled the cupOf apple juice in the hallPlease tell mom this is not her faultI never conquered, rarely came16 just held such better daysDays when I can still felt aliveWe couldnt cant wait to get outsideThe world was watching, hate to tryThe tour is over, we survivedI couldnt wait till I got homeTo pass the time in my room alone..... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladyshady Posted May 7 Report Share Posted May 7 All I can say is that my life is pretty plain I like watchin' the puddles gather rain And all I can do is just pour some tea for two and speak my point of view But it's not sane, It's not sane I just want some one to say to me I'll always be there when you wake Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today So stay with me and I'll have it made And I don't understand why I sleep all day And I start to complain that there's no rain And all I can do is read a book to stay awake And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape escape......escape......escape...... All I can say is that my life is pretty plain ya don't like my point of view ya think I'm insane Its not sane......it's not sane. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted May 7 Author Report Share Posted May 7 Originally posted by ladyshady All I can say is that my life is pretty plain I like watchin' the puddles gather rain And all I can do is just pour some tea for two and speak my point of view But it's not sane, It's not sane I just want some one to say to me I'll always be there when you wake Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today So stay with me and I'll have it made And I don't understand why I sleep all day And I start to complain that there's no rain And all I can do is read a book to stay awake And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape escape......escape......escape...... All I can say is that my life is pretty plain ya don't like my point of view ya think I'm insane Its not sane......it's not sane. i had to think for two whole minutes where this song was from....then I remembered the chubbet in the bumble bee costume....lol... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladyshady Posted May 8 Report Share Posted May 8 Originally posted by marcid21 i had to think for two whole minutes where this song was from....then I remembered the chubbet in the bumble bee costume....lol... yep....lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted May 8 Report Share Posted May 8 she spoke to me in a soft voice, offering words and images of extreme beauty, warm hands gripped my heart, blood covered lips they whispered, and assured me that all we have left is just you and I. - you and i Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nSyNcBaBy Posted May 8 Report Share Posted May 8 Baby when I think aboutThe day that we first met Wasn't lookin' for what I foundBut I found youAnd I'm bound to Find happiness in bein' around youI'm glad When I'm makin' love to youI'm glad for the way you make me feelI love it cause you seem to blow my mindEvery.. timeI'm glad When you walk you hold my handI'm happy that you know how to be a manI'm glad that you came into my lifeI'm so gladI dig the way that you get down And you still know how to hold mePerfect blend, masculineI think I'm in loveDamn, finally...I'm gladThat youTurned out to beThat certain someone specialWho makes this lifeWorth livingI'm gladYou're here, Just loving me...So say that you won't leave'Cause since the day you cameI' been gladI'm glad When I'm makin' love to youI'm glad for the way you make me feelI love it cause you seem to blow my mindEvery.. timeI'm glad When you walk you hold my handI'm happy that you know how to be a manI'm glad that you came into my lifeI'm so glad Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
naughtybabe Posted May 8 Report Share Posted May 8 Lina... great song... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sassa Posted May 8 Report Share Posted May 8 Yo papi, why you always seem like you got somethin on your mind? You be stressin yourself out yo Come here baby, let me relax you[Guru]But listen yo.. I'm thinkin, I'm thinkinI'll be right there.. I'm thinkin..It's time, for a revelationOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelationOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelation[bu]Ghetto life strikes, hold on tightAin't no lettin go, AIKKA, AIKKA AIKKAis the beat in the street, crooked cops cock shotswreakin havoc, it's tragic, heated, yung'unsrun around gunnin for fun, burners blazetil beef is well done, chest get infestedwith lead more than less took to the head made it deadRest in peace, no grievin, no remorse it's[Guru]costin, all of our lives and all our dreamsIt seems we can never accomplish thingBut we oughta do somethin, for all our strugglinI ain't talkin bout the loot they get from cocaine smugglinor jugglin, two or three jobs, or maybe moreCo-workers all a bore, what am I doin this for?I can score if I stay pure at heartbut I guess we had it rough from the startOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelationOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelation..[bu]I deal with what I got to get what I needSpeed and greed, only ends up as body bagsI'm just glad, I got rep to breedToo many droppin, like leaves off trees, fall it's likeall for none, none for allIn this land of the damned, everybody down to be the manNuff scams are ran, not only fiends scheme it seemsDreams unruly obstructedInnocent minds corruptedBrothers and sisters scufflin for dimes and nickels[Guru]And fickle minds can't find what lurks behindthe propoganda, and the subliminal seductionSo wake up and renewEven if you only do this for youTrue, I'd do a killing in self-defenseBut then I'd end up in the state penOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelationOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelation..[bu]It's a danger zone, your own's prone to stick youVictimize will make your blood trickle, this is criticalcondition for livin, life and death decisionsmakin moves with precision, raisin ranks and bankMixin with some click tank thick on the grassroots levelI connect the spots from the lots of productionBuildin on the function of the unitHit ya in tunes switched before you freak MC's scatter[Guru]It matters not, if the weather's hot, or coldCircumstances, make a sucker act boldI don't fear the threat of violenceI'm just examinin the reason behind itI find it's like a paradox, sorrow or glorybut everybody's got a storyLike when you pulled out, because they made you madYou weren't quick on the draw, so too badOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelationOut here there's many things to see associated with painIt's time for a change, a revelationIt's time for a change, a revelationRevelationRevelationRevelationIt's time for a change, a revelationTime for a change.. revelation.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
francismhwhite Posted May 8 Report Share Posted May 8 I cant help falling in love with you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
naughtybabe Posted May 9 Report Share Posted May 9 If you could see inside my heartThen you would understandI'd never mean to hurt youBaby I'm not that kind of manI might not say I'm sorryYeah, I might talk rough sometimesAnd I might forget the little thingsOr keep you hanging on the lineIn a world that don't know Romeo and JulietBoy meets girl and promises we can't forgetWe are cast from Eden's gate with no regretsInto the fire we cryI'd die for youI'd cry for youI'd do anythingI'd lie for youYou know it's trueBaby I'd die for youI'd die for youI'd cry for youIf it came right down to me and youYou know it's true, Baby I'd die for youI might not be a saviorAnd I'll never be a kingI might not send you rosesOr buy you diamond ringsBut if I could see inside youMaybe I'd know just who we are'Cause our love is like a hungerWithout it we would starveIn a world that don't know Romeo and JulietBoy meets girl and promises we can't forgetWe are cast from Eden's gate with no regretsInto the fire we cryI'd die for youI'd cry for youI'd do anythingI'd lie for youYou know it's trueBaby I'd die for youI'd die for youI'd cry for youIf it came right down to me and youYou know it's true, Baby I'd die for you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
naughtybabe Posted May 9 Report Share Posted May 9 Sitting here wasted and wounded at this old piano Trying hard to capture the moment this morning I don't know 'Cause a bottle of vodka is still lodged in my head And some blonde gave me nightmares I think she's still in my bed As I dream about movies they won't make of me when I'm dead With an ironclad fist I wake up and French kiss the morning While some marching band keeps its own beat in my head While we're talking About all of the things that I long to believe About love and the truth and what you mean to me And the truth is baby you're all that I need I want to lay you down on a bed of roses For tonite I sleep on a bed on nails I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is And lay you down on bed of roses Well I'm so far away That each step that I take is on my way home A king's ransom in dimes I've given each night Just to see through this payphone Still I run out of time Or it's hard to get through Till the bird on the wire flies me back to you I'll just close my eyes and whisper, baby blind love is true I want to lay you down on a bed of roses For tonite I sleep on a bed of nails I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is And lay you down on bed of roses The hotel bar hangover whiskey's gone dry The barkeeper's wig's crooked And she's giving me the eye I might have said yeah But I laughed so hard I think I died When you close your eyes Know I'll be thinking about you While my mistress she calls me To stand in her spotlight again Tonite I won't be alone But you know that don't Mean I'm not lonely I've got nothing to prove For it's you that I'd die to defend I want to lay you down on a bed of roses For tonite I sleep on a bed of nails I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is And lay you down on bed of roses Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
naughtybabe Posted May 9 Report Share Posted May 9 Look into my eyes - you will seeWhat you mean to meSearch your heart - search your soulAnd when you find me there you'll search no moreDon't tell me it's not worth tryin' forYou can't tell me it's not worth dyin' forYou know it's trueEverything I do - I do it for youLook into my heart - you will findThere's nothin' there to hideTake me as I am - take my lifeI would give it all I would sacrificeDon't tell me it's not worth fightin' forI can't help it there's nothin' I want moreYa know it's trueEverything I do - I do it for youThere's no love - like your loveAnd no other - could give more loveThere's nowhere - unless you're thereAll the time - all the wayDon't tell me it's not worth tryin' forI can't help it there's nothin' I want moreI would fight for you - I'd lie for youWalk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for youYa know it's trueEverything I do - I do it for you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
naughtybabe Posted May 9 Report Share Posted May 9 When I look into your eyesI can see a love restrainedBut darlin' when I hold youDon't you know I feel the same'Cause nothin' lasts foreverAnd we both know hearts can changeAnd it's hard to hold a candleIn the cold November rainWe've been through this auch a long long timeJust tryin' to kill the painBut lovers always come and lovers always goAn no one's really sure who's lettin' go todayWalking awayIf we could take the timeto lay it on the lineI could rest my headJust knowin' that you were mineAll mineSo if you want to love methen darlin' don't refrainOr I'll just end up walkin'In the cold November rainDo you need some time...on your ownDo you need some time...all aloneEverybody needs some time...on their ownDon't you know you need some time...all aloneI know it's hard to keep an open heartWhen even friends seem out to harm youBut if you could heal a broken heartWouldn't time be out to charm youSometimes I need some time...on myownSometimes I need some time...all aloneEverybody needs some time...on their ownDon't you know you need some time...all aloneAnd when your fears subsideAnd shadows still remainI know that you can love meWhen there's no one left to blameSo never mind the darknessWe still can find a way'Cause nothin' lasts foreverEven cold November rainDon't ya think that you need somebodyDon't ya think that you need someoneEverybody needs somebodyYou're not the only oneYou're not the only one Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted May 9 Report Share Posted May 9 Net profit is the only measurement I use for trading success. As we used to say to prospective traders..."Money is the only reward in trading. If you're coming into trading expecting any other benefits, then you're in the wrong business."I've had some time to reflect on trading. On the whole I believe it is a net negative experience. Yes, you make lots of money when done well. However, to do it well, I believe it leaves you damaged emotionally, physically, and spiritually.For instance, when I first started trading, my hands shook, my voice shook, and I was in and out of small positions very quickly. As time went on I settled down and the nervousness stopped. One day in 2000 I believed the market was going to tank in the afternoon. I built a very large position during the morning and sure enough, the market collapsed in the afternoon. My whole trading desk was going nuts... lots of yelling and getting excited. That was the first time I noticed my emotions were gone. I couldn't get excited, just "ok, now on to the next trade". I've realized since then that I can't get excited when things go well, or depressed when things go bad...just flat emotions all the time.I think it's a heavy price to pay for trading well.My throat is stringy and deep from years of yelling. I don't remember what my original voice sounds like. I don't have the energy I once had. If I trade more than 4 days in a row, I'm so tired I start falling asleep while waiting for a setup.Good trading leaves me thinking in terms of spread (bid/ask) all the time. When I buy a new car, I can't help trying to figure out the spread between the dealer true cost and the bid he's making. In fact I don't buy a car until the manager shows me his profit in the transaction (opens his book). That also carries over to relationships. When someone initiates a conversation, I immediately assume the language is part of a setup that will lead to a request (execution) for something. In most cases I'm right, but it leaves you a bit chilled at the prospect of interacting. Good trading also means pressing positions when they're going in your favor. We were told it's like stepping on someones throat after you've knocked them down. A decent trader would book profits when the opponent is knocked down. I good trader will walk over and press the position until the opponent is crushed.All this leaves my spirit feeling guilty. I know I've knocked some people out of the game, when all I needed to do was let up and let them slip out of a position with a smaller loss. I have 50+ years of life left (normal expectancy) and I haven't a clue as to what I'm going to do. Nothing gets me excited. I probably need some psychiatric help. I think it's a very high price to pay for a couple of bucks in the bank... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted May 9 Author Report Share Posted May 9 Originally posted by naughtybabe When I look into your eyesI can see a love restrainedBut darlin' when I hold youDon't you know I feel the same'Cause nothin' lasts foreverAnd we both know hearts can changeAnd it's hard to hold a candleIn the cold November rainWe've been through this auch a long long timeJust tryin' to kill the painBut lovers always come and lovers always goAn no one's really sure who's lettin' go todayWalking awayIf we could take the timeto lay it on the lineI could rest my headJust knowin' that you were mineAll mineSo if you want to love methen darlin' don't refrainOr I'll just end up walkin'In the cold November rainDo you need some time...on your ownDo you need some time...all aloneEverybody needs some time...on their ownDon't you know you need some time...all aloneI know it's hard to keep an open heartWhen even friends seem out to harm youBut if you could heal a broken heartWouldn't time be out to charm youSometimes I need some time...on myownSometimes I need some time...all aloneEverybody needs some time...on their ownDon't you know you need some time...all aloneAnd when your fears subsideAnd shadows still remainI know that you can love meWhen there's no one left to blameSo never mind the darknessWe still can find a way'Cause nothin' lasts foreverEven cold November rainDon't ya think that you need somebodyDon't ya think that you need someoneEverybody needs somebodyYou're not the only oneYou're not the only one u have to know one thing RIGHT NOW! I'd buttfuck Axl if I could! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted May 9 Author Report Share Posted May 9 Originally posted by dgmodel Net profit is the only measurement I use for trading success. As we used to say to prospective traders..."Money is the only reward in trading. If you're coming into trading expecting any other benefits, then you're in the wrong business."I've had some time to reflect on trading. On the whole I believe it is a net negative experience. Yes, you make lots of money when done well. However, to do it well, I believe it leaves you damaged emotionally, physically, and spiritually.For instance, when I first started trading, my hands shook, my voice shook, and I was in and out of small positions very quickly. As time went on I settled down and the nervousness stopped. One day in 2000 I believed the market was going to tank in the afternoon. I built a very large position during the morning and sure enough, the market collapsed in the afternoon. My whole trading desk was going nuts... lots of yelling and getting excited. That was the first time I noticed my emotions were gone. I couldn't get excited, just "ok, now on to the next trade". I've realized since then that I can't get excited when things go well, or depressed when things go bad...just flat emotions all the time.I think it's a heavy price to pay for trading well.My throat is stringy and deep from years of yelling. I don't remember what my original voice sounds like. I don't have the energy I once had. If I trade more than 4 days in a row, I'm so tired I start falling asleep while waiting for a setup.Good trading leaves me thinking in terms of spread (bid/ask) all the time. When I buy a new car, I can't help trying to figure out the spread between the dealer true cost and the bid he's making. In fact I don't buy a car until the manager shows me his profit in the transaction (opens his book). That also carries over to relationships. When someone initiates a conversation, I immediately assume the language is part of a setup that will lead to a request (execution) for something. In most cases I'm right, but it leaves you a bit chilled at the prospect of interacting. Good trading also means pressing positions when they're going in your favor. We were told it's like stepping on someones throat after you've knocked them down. A decent trader would book profits when the opponent is knocked down. I good trader will walk over and press the position until the opponent is crushed.All this leaves my spirit feeling guilty. I know I've knocked some people out of the game, when all I needed to do was let up and let them slip out of a position with a smaller loss. I have 50+ years of life left (normal expectancy) and I haven't a clue as to what I'm going to do. Nothing gets me excited. I probably need some psychiatric help. I think it's a very high price to pay for a couple of bucks in the bank... wow....is that from a book? something you wrote? I'd like to read more.PS...don't harden.PPS...nice sig, yours and mine should do it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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