mugwump Posted June 30 Report Share Posted June 30 Yup..dark shit...loosing my job kindapushed me over the edge..I was still hurting from otherstuff and then WHAMO!Boss: "Umm look it's not personalwe just have to let most of the graphicsdept go for the summer..Come back in Fall"MUGZ: "but..how am I gonna pay rent?"Boss: "You'll figure something out"*******(Time elapses and Mugz is shit facedat a local dive bar..stumbles out intothe street and get's nailed by a car.As he is laying there his last thoughtsare..shit that hurt. Mugz comes towith a doctor next to him.Nothing broken but the booze and the scareleave him feeling like he just got hit by a train..In any case the car was going slow thankfully.Mugz goes home...Amy's mad becausehe's drunk..Mugz keeps drinkingand drinking and...Next day he wakes up with a badhangover and a shit load ofthreads on CP about the end of theworld or something..Mugz goes out to buy V8 and Vodka for breakfast.By noon Mugz is so hammered again thathe starts to talk to himself..seeing things..people who are not there..are they real..Mugz blacks out..Looses track of time..time..time..BLACK.Music.Where am I?DJ RAP and Sara Walker.I see familiar faces but I am so shitfaced that I make an ass out of myself witheveryone.Katie (K-swing)walks me to the path..I collapse and she drags me.K-Swing: "WAKE UP MAN!WHAT ARE YOU ON?"Mugz: "An open bar tab..shit I left mycredit card at Baktun.."Black out again...Path train..people are starring..I'm rambling..I vomit.Wake up on the stoop of my apt..My roomate Dan finds me there.Couldn't open the door..Don't remember why..I miss Amy..she's gone to MexicoI hurt..I'm coldfrom hoursof being outside..I broke my cell phone.Dan drags me in and carries me to the couch.I sleep....Wake up and repeat the pattern..V8..Vodka..Everything spinning but the Bloody marrymakes it stand still..But colors are really bright..I haven't eaten for how long?The People in the living room are just mymasks that I collect from around the w orld..They come alive again..I go out..KOROVA MILK BARI deside to stickto something light..BEER.Ten beers later I Realizethat perhaps the beer isn't "LIGHT"when you drink more than a six pack withina first hour...American psycho is playing on TV..(How ironic)I go home..Dan and Lunaare over...Mushrooms?Hell why not...Half an hour later we are all laying downlistening to theORB..amaaaaaaazing...I'm fighting Demons in my head...I'm in TRON..I'm digital..I AM A ROBOT!Cry..sad.....angry...I fight the demons.I talk about the end of the world..I want to crawl into a dreamand never come back....no sleep..just fadedmushroom dreams..I go back to my roomand jerk off..Porn is 3-D..I can't get off...Mushrooms have reduced me to a fleshy messof numbness..I lay down and try to sleep.I throw on some system 7..I watch A.I....the sun is high now..I hurt..but THE STORM HAS PASSED.I am MUGZ AGAIN...At least...for the time being anyway.*So how was your weekend? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gothzane Posted June 30 Report Share Posted June 30 damn bro...save that shit.sorry..inable to mentally function...Broken from Arc man i miss vinyl Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cotoncandydream Posted June 30 Report Share Posted June 30 Call me at home, I think it's time to get that one-way to Fucimino for the summer. Momma's hugs do wonders for the soul love. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mugwump Posted June 30 Author Report Share Posted June 30 Yea..I'm making plans to go see mama.I miss ya Lainie..you use to kick my ass backinto reality.In any case..The storm is gone..and now I am in t hesun once again..Wearing headphonesand staying away from substances untilthe next Tsunami hits me..Because when it comes,there's just nothing I can do exceptlet the winds take me where they may.but I'm home now,and all is good. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cotoncandydream Posted July 1 Report Share Posted July 1 Miss you too Mugz!!!! I know how you feel brother I know how you feel! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
thehacker Posted July 1 Report Share Posted July 1 hunter s thompson called for you...he wants his typewriter and suitcase full of drugs back, pronto! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mugwump Posted July 1 Author Report Share Posted July 1 Originally posted by thehacker hunter s thompson called for you...he wants his typewriter and suitcase full of drugs back, pronto! Tell him I lost themin Interzone..I apologize but that doctor Benwayfella had me hopped upon the black meat..and not even the MUGWUMPJIZZM was snapping me out of it..*(Mugwump Jizzm has been knownto reverse the side effects of TheBrazillian Aquatic Centepede..ie, "The Black meat")So I will lay low for a whilein the guise of love...In order to keep the free agentsat bay.(Nice sig man) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bustaknut2001 Posted July 1 Report Share Posted July 1 What a night you had my man! You should stay away from alcohol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
joeg Posted July 1 Report Share Posted July 1 You gave me quite a scare with that phonecall... seriously man... go home for a bit, get another dog... try and start over... Theres more to you than drugs/alcohol... go rediscover that side of yourself... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mugwump Posted July 1 Author Report Share Posted July 1 Originally posted by joeg You gave me quite a scare with that phonecall... seriously man... go home for a bit, get another dog... try and start over... Theres more to you than drugs/alcohol... go rediscover that side of yourself... The other side of me had been buriedmiles below a frozen ice...Much like the character DAVIDin A.I..When I found out therewas no Blue Fairiemy mind broke...It took one certaingo-go amy to drag me back upto the surface andtry to thaw my mindout...ocassionaly thoughI re-lapse..But at least she's pointingme in the right directionof government issued happy pillsand less self medication.I need to see the oceanof Tuscany..I neeed to fall back in lovewith the world and believepeople are good again..I need to fall back in lovewith humanity and somehowfall back in lovewith myself..A self that died with a pastlove affair that left me feelingworthless, empty and used..friendships that betrayedme and made me see thatin NY everyone wears masksand costumes...To see the truthbehind those masksbroke my mind...but I'm slowly coming aroundagain...and before I TRUELYgo home I plan toMAKE something in thiscity.Something constructive...something that mysorrow and self destructivenature just keeps getting in the way of.THE BEST IS YET TO COME:"Mugwump's last stomp" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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