The other night I got together with some friends that I used to party with and as I looked around all I could ask is what happened to us. My answer was nothing happened to us, because we are all in search for that great party from the past that we miss so much. Half of the group have given up and won't venture out anymore. I find that all of a sudden we're bar people. This didn't used to be so. A couple years ago I could never be found in a bar, maybe I meet someone outside of one on the way to a club, but know the later is really entered. My boy Liquid was reminiscing of the old days at USA, when the night was about the music. Where we never saw a glow stick and the doormen were actually picky. There were weird occassions of actually paying to get in and the price never exceed $10. Drink tickets were given out by the handful and the overall feeling was this was about the music and not the money. There used to be clubs that cared about getting good Dj's and setting the mood for a crowd of people who new about the music and came out to enjoy it. After USA the Tunnel was the party, but the crowd started to change at that point. We'd only go on gay night just so we didn't have to deal with these new partiers. Crowded rooms became all to regular and that no problems no beef atmosphere was gone. At points I think someone should have jumped on the mike and scream out Rave is very dead. It came to the point that I would leave a club 20 mins after getting there and not caring that I just paid $20 to get in. When JV started spinning at Systems on Wed. nights, we all felt like maybe it's not over after all. Yeah the crowd was very small but it was filled with true club heads. There could not have been a lot of money made by JV for those parties and our respect for him as a DJ was grew, but he soon fell off too. To be in college, in PA, and have these beyond suburbians pumping Junior and heading off to the Tunnel and the Twilo, cut my ties to my old world and any hope of the scene turning around was lost. We all tried to find salvation in lounges and underground parties, but they've been blown up with all those articles about star sightings. For 2 months last year I found a little happiness in the Sat party at Roxy's. Even though overpriced, Victor Claderone, made it worth it, but the Chelsea boy, though friendly, didn't cut it. I'm probably the only one left that still holds out hope that a good party will emerge like way back when, but as time moves on I'll be joining you at the bar. ------------------