Something that must be said. A while back I thought pm's where instant messages, didnt know any better that is why so many were sent. Said some things that weren't true not because there is pathology involved, but because I wanted to seem better than I am and realized it was dum and continueing working on myslef changes a person. All I wanted is for you to except me as a person. I suppose because you were important to me. I always want people to accept me. I do not want to be an annoyance but I was looking for you to say something nice to me. MY issue with cp is that it was a plan the whole time, to be keep it on the side and for me to have nothing to do with it. I posted even in the old clubnyc days. Hope this makes sense.