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That was so thoughtful and considerate of my feelings. Thank you bumpdaddy for taking me seriously. To everyone else, you are kind souls.

I need some serious help. I have been a functioning cocaine addict for about 8 years, at my worst point buying an ounce a week. I was sober for 8 months, then last week I relapsed and bought a gram. Tonight I will be attending my first cocaine anonymous meeting. That sounds like that's the problem, but it gets worse. About a year and a half ago I noticed a hole in my septum (the center seperation between your nostrils) Any normal person would have stopped at that point, but I have been an idiot. The hole now extends to centemeters from the tip of my nose. I have done research and learned they can put a silicone button in the hole, but my case is much worse. I don't have insurance through work, and because of pre-exhisting conditions, I am not eligible for any individual health insurance plan. I am thinking of quiting my job and getting another one that offers insurance so I can get my nose checked out. It is my understanding that they can take cartlage from your ear or tissue from a donor and repair my nose, but I'm not sure. It costs hundreds of dollars I don't have to see a Ear, nose and throat specialist, or even a plastic surgeon. I know, I know, I should have saved some of the fortune I wasted on drugs, but hindsight is 20/20, and now I don't know what to do. I am scared to death of my nose collapsing, even though I am off the shit and intend to stay sober. Can anyone offer any advice, or is anyone else, or do you know of someone in the same situation? Any advice you can offer would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much.