My boyfriend has never come clubbing with me and tonight is my last night in nyc and Exit b4 I go away and the last time there with my friends (as I've already said many times,sorry)and he said he might go with his friends. I used to beg him every week to come with me but he never did, so I got used to going without him-Like I talk to many people, guys and girls and do friendly while we're on E things with people, but if he ever knew that or saw that, he would flip out. It's not like I cheat on him or anything, but I just like to meet people. I'm so used to going without him it would be hella strange if he was there and I would be restricted from doing everything I normally do and spending all my time with my friends, which is what I was planning to do tonight. I am flipping out because I don't know what to do-I just wanted this night to be good. What should I do or say to him, etc? Janine ------------------ "Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake"