gambitrah, i hear that. I couldnt do school, life or anything while i was doing all that stuff. I will never forget the first essay i had to write in my senior year of high school. It wasnt a huge one but it was proving that you were put in the right class. Which i was in some upper class of english. anyway i went to a party the night before and got all messed up. it was my first time taken anything and i got really sick and passed out. When i got my paper back it was a huge see me in red on it. Not what i was expecting to see. But that didnt stop me. I guess i had my heads too much in the clouds until this year. But iam defin trying to get caught up with things that i have missed thru out those years. I think we are in the same boat. Anyway if you ever need someone to talk too yo iam here for ya:) Hugs ya