nympho69 Posted January 28 Report Share Posted January 28 Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far awayNow it seems as though there here to stayOh I believe in yesterdaySuddenly, I'm not half the man I used to bethere's a shadow hanging over meOh yesterday came suddenlyWhy she had to goI dont know she wouldnt sayI said something wrongnow I long for yesterdayYesterday, love was such an easy game to playnow I need a place to hideawayOh I believe in yesterday Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted January 29 Author Report Share Posted January 29 when i look into your eyesit's hard to realizethe way we used tobewhy did you set me freei gave you all my lovewith the hopes that we would bea passion that would lastthrough all eternityyou were always on my mindwithin my hearti don't know what to dowithin my heartcause i'm still in love with youwithin my heartwhy did it have to be this way?cause within my heart i always wanted you to stay....and i hope to some day finda love that we once sharedcan't you see i really caredyou know i need you nowand ihave to find out howwe would ever bebaby, you and me....within my hearti don't know what to dowithin my heartcause i'm still in love with youwithin my heartwhy did it have to be this way?cause within my heart i always wanted you to stay... <3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted January 29 Author Report Share Posted January 29 deeperevolvingandneverneveracknowledgingexactdemons Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted January 29 Author Report Share Posted January 29 MimickingAlwaysRetractingConciousIndecisionsDisconcerningIdeasKnowingUnderlyingNemisis Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted January 29 Author Report Share Posted January 29 Frigid like the air outsideIn the depths of grey snowy wintersDeaf to the weary calls of the windsGawking at the patterns in the skyEtched in bone and bloodTopped with the mirrored image of your face.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted January 29 Author Report Share Posted January 29 Forgive meReassure me Accept meNeed meKnow me Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 i swear to GOD i hope i wake up dead tomorrow... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nympho69 Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel i swear to GOD i hope i wake up dead tomorrow... why? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 because im done... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nympho69 Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel because im done... done with what?? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 with everything... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nympho69 Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel with everything... like??? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 i dont want this to turn into some drama type ish, or make it look like some attention type of thing, however i feel everyone can relate to this... and thats why im going to write it.. as of late ive been fed up to here with just everything... everything from waking up (specific times, dates etc, everythings a deadline, everythings a intraday, everything = time is money blah blah blah, dressing up (what to wear where, and when and blah), paying rent, shopping for food, bills, cars, family, friends, news, geopolitical issues, the market, going out, staying in, and the best part about it... is i get to do this for another 60yrs... depending on what the avg life expectancy is in nyc... so in summation, looking forward, i think ive had enough... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
elementx Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel i dont want this to turn into some drama type ish, or make it look like some attention type of thing, however i feel everyone can relate to this... and thats why im going to write it.. as of late ive been fed up to here with just everything... everything from waking up (specific times, dates etc, everythings a deadline, everythings a intraday, everything = time is money blah blah blah, dressing up (what to wear where, and when and blah), paying rent, shopping for food, bills, cars, family, friends, news, geopolitical issues, the market, going out, staying in, and the best part about it... is i get to do this for another 60yrs... depending on what the avg life expectancy is in nyc... so in summation, looking forward, i think ive had enough... Your not alone! Not saying I dont want to wake up. But in all sincerity ( Spell Check ). There has to be another way. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 together we will find it... in any event.. i think it might be my beddy bye time... ttyl... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nympho69 Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel i dont want this to turn into some drama type ish, or make it look like some attention type of thing, however i feel everyone can relate to this... and thats why im going to write it.. as of late ive been fed up to here with just everything... everything from waking up (specific times, dates etc, everythings a deadline, everythings a intraday, everything = time is money blah blah blah, dressing up (what to wear where, and when and blah), paying rent, shopping for food, bills, cars, family, friends, news, geopolitical issues, the market, going out, staying in, and the best part about it... is i get to do this for another 60yrs... depending on what the avg life expectancy is in nyc... so in summation, looking forward, i think ive had enough... well its like u said we can all relatesure life is not easybut that doesnt make it horriblethere still exists a few things that make life great and all the bullshit that comes with itlook i dont know the details of ur situation but things cant be that bad Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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nympho69 Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 I <3 DGMODEL Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
njdionysus Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel i dont want this to turn into some drama type ish, or make it look like some attention type of thing, however i feel everyone can relate to this... and thats why im going to write it.. as of late ive been fed up to here with just everything... everything from waking up (specific times, dates etc, everythings a deadline, everythings a intraday, everything = time is money blah blah blah, dressing up (what to wear where, and when and blah), paying rent, shopping for food, bills, cars, family, friends, news, geopolitical issues, the market, going out, staying in, and the best part about it... is i get to do this for another 60yrs... depending on what the avg life expectancy is in nyc... so in summation, looking forward, i think ive had enough... Welcome to life, its called growing up. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
drmoxx Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel i dont want this to turn into some drama type ish, or make it look like some attention type of thing, however i feel everyone can relate to this... and thats why im going to write it.. as of late ive been fed up to here with just everything... everything from waking up (specific times, dates etc, everythings a deadline, everythings a intraday, everything = time is money blah blah blah, dressing up (what to wear where, and when and blah), paying rent, shopping for food, bills, cars, family, friends, news, geopolitical issues, the market, going out, staying in, and the best part about it... is i get to do this for another 60yrs... depending on what the avg life expectancy is in nyc... so in summation, looking forward, i think ive had enough... i felt the same last year so.................i quit my job and haven't worked since june. need to get some things in order. when friends/family express their concern...i tell them that i have the rest of my life to work. and then i tell'em whenever i die will my tombstone say "did not work form so and so"-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted January 29 Author Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by dgmodel i dont want this to turn into some drama type ish, or make it look like some attention type of thing, however i feel everyone can relate to this... and thats why im going to write it.. as of late ive been fed up to here with just everything... everything from waking up (specific times, dates etc, everythings a deadline, everythings a intraday, everything = time is money blah blah blah, dressing up (what to wear where, and when and blah), paying rent, shopping for food, bills, cars, family, friends, news, geopolitical issues, the market, going out, staying in, and the best part about it... is i get to do this for another 60yrs... depending on what the avg life expectancy is in nyc... so in summation, looking forward, i think ive had enough... yes...a lot of us know EXACTLY what you're talking about....do you remember what i was like around this time last year???? MISERABLE! I hated my job, myself, my friends, family, and everything else surrounding me. It was all so dull...somewhere along the lines life seemed to have lost my interest, but just continuted on, dragging me through the bowels of it. Waking up in the morning was a mission within itself. In fact, for two weeks I decided to just call out of work sick, and sleep.Somewhere along the lines I woke up a lil' and out of responsibility I got back to "real life"...but even then I could still feel something was missing.Slowly but surely things started to evolve... I really don't know how I did it...but, here I am....wonderful new job that gives me a boner every morning, brand new apt that I'm getting used to, my friends....although throughout the past year there was a ton of process of elimination, and I even tossed the heavy weights of a guy I had been seeing for a while.I'm really not glowing in all these changes....don't get the wrong idea. There's still a bunch of things I'm working on to be somewhere even close to happy. I guess the point is....take a break. A relaxing one, but do it with your eyes open. Think about when you go snowboarding, or when your soaking up the sun at the beach....your mind drifts off, no?? And you daydream about all these lil' possibilities that could happen in love, life, and your carreer...well, translate them into real life...and make them happen. It's not easy....and it won't get done all at once....FUCK, it won't get done in a year....but, it'll get done.I suppose the depression part of it goes along with the territory...it did in my situation. To relieve it, drugs and alcohol stepped in, but they just overshadowed it....the only thing/person that could make it better is you.Big or small, it all boils down to CHANGE.(( recession = US Enema ))PS....as if i have to say this, but you know where I am.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 29 Report Share Posted January 29 Originally posted by njdionysus Welcome to life, its called growing up. Ive been "grown up" been doing this since ive been 16... just tired of it... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 30 Report Share Posted January 30 I’m tugging at my hairI’m pulling at my clothesI’m trying to keep my coolI know it showsI’m staring at my feetMy cheeks are turning redI’m searching for the words inside my headI’m feeling nervousTrying to be so perfectCause I know you’re worth itYou’re worth itIf I could say what I want to sayI'd say I wanna blow you awayBe with you every nightAm I squeezing you too tightIf I could say what I want to seeI want to go down On one kneeMarry you todayGuess, I’m wishing my life awayWith these things I’ll never sayIt don’t do me any goodIt’s just a waste of timeWhat use is it to youWhat’s on my mindIf it ain’t coming outWe’re not going anywhereSo why can’t I just tell you that I careWhat’s wrong with my tongueThese words keep slipping awayI stutter, I stumble Like I’ve got nothing to sayGuess I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never sayIf I could say what I want to sayI'd say I wanna blow you awayBe with you every nightAm I squeezing you too tightIf I could say what I want to seeI want to go down On one kneeMarry me todayYes, I’m wishing my life awayWith these things I’ll never sayThese things I’ll never say... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dgmodel Posted January 30 Report Share Posted January 30 i believe i believe i believe...the love you talk about with me...is true... and do i care?? honestly? you can try to wipe the memories aside... but its you...cause theres no place i could be with out you... eh fuck this im not in the mooooood... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marcid21 Posted January 30 Author Report Share Posted January 30 Originally posted by marcid21 i'm tugging at my hairi'm pullin at my clothesi'm tryin to keep my cooli know it showsi'm staring at my feetmy cheeks are turning redi'm searching for the words inside my headi'm feeling nervoustrying to be so perfectcause i know you're worth it...if i could say what i wanna say what i wanna sayi'd say i wanna blow you...awaybe with you every nightam i squeezing you too tightif i could say what i wanna seei wanna see you go down... on one kneemarry me today...yes, i'm wishing my life awaywith these things i'll never say.it don't do me any goodit's just a waste of timewhat use is it to you?what's on my mindif it ain't comin outwe ain't goin anywhereso why can't i just tell you that i carei'm feeling nervoustrying to be so perfectcause i know you're worth it...if i could say what i wanna say what i wanna sayi'd say i wanna blow you...awaybe with you every nightam i squeezing you too tightif i could say what i wanna seei wanna see you go down... on one kneemarry me today...yes, i'm wishing my life awaywith these things i'll never say.what's wrong, with my songthese words keep sliping awayi studderi stumble......like I got nothing to sayi'm feeling nervoustrying to be so perfectcause i know you're worth it...Yes I'm wishing my life away, with these things I'll never say... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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