not trying to judge, but what you said isn't a good thing. I mean, I definitly do my fair share of drugs but not to feel better about myself or make up for something that my sober self lacks. Drug use, in my opinion, should be to intensify an experience not to just make you feel like a normal experience. I mean, I like who I am sober. When I do smoke, drink, drop etc...i do it to add to the time I'm having at the time...not to make up for soem kind of lack of confidence or acceptance or whatever. hey, everyone's different though.