At least you had the guts to tell her the truth. I bet you a dollar, a lot of these mutha fuckas on this board has done the same thing, but to chicken shit to tell their S.O the truth. So for that, I applaud you. I guess man, you've seen what happens. Try to straighten yoursef up to where YOU want to be at. No one really knows what's best for you, but you. Good luck man.......and try to learn from your mistakes.