Jaleousy - I can't handle it:(

[jaleousy]

well I even picked jaleousy for my nickname:/

first I appolgize in advance for my poor english which is not my first language.

I just felt need to say something about this subject and maybe some of answers help me to get over it.

Huh, so there it is, I am 27 years old man, I used to have lot of girlfriends but never soem serious relationship, I find very hard to trust to other people so I need time to meet them well and unfortunately that time is too long for other side that always think I am cold blood and without emotions which I actualy don't show (I always keep it in myself) and everybody that knows me think I am just guy like that (sort of tough guy), but they don't know me. I find myself very emotinaly but hardly I express it. And than at the and of day I feel lonely.

I get used on that and never actualy have big personal problems until few days ago..... I meet one girl over big network meeting channel, we exchanged photos and phone numbers so we find out that we are attractive to each other. After couple of weeks we met each other as well and start to hangin' out and finnaly start to slep together. But than I get unexpected bussines trips and I was away 30 days, in that period I recived many sms-messagges from her but almost never respond because I get into some problems on that trip I mentioned (anyway I know I was total moron because of it). when I get back I felt hers disappointment, but I ignored it and contiunue to talk as always and never try to get on some higher level of relationship with her no metter I knew she was crashed in me. Again I was away for some time and I felt she starts to cold down on me and suddanly she met somebody else, somebody else who start to show great attention to her , to take care to her, to make dinner for her, to dedicate almost all time only for her and I said "ogg that is great I am so happy cause you finnaly found someone who cares who loves you etc...., I also asked about how he make her happy and after I hear all I saw that I never can't be like that and in some moment I was hit so hard, so badly with JALEOUSY. what a damn idiot I was, I askin' myself all the time..... I never felt anything similar in my life, I can't think , I can't work, I can't breath like before, I feel great pain inside and this is first time I tell that to someone cause I feel shame to share those feeling with people i know in real life. All I do last couple of days is listening songs like "Paul Weller - Wishing on the star, Marc Anthony - You sang to me, Shola Ama - You might need somebody, Lenny Kravitz - I belong to You, Barry White..."" and similar, while I listen those songs my eyes get wet and I am very sad in the moment but I listen again and again and again.

I can't stop blaming myself for what a damn idiot I was, and why I start to think so deep only after damage is done.

.....there is some other pathetic question I would like to ask but first I want to hear any of comment from people here what You think that might could help me to feel better.

one more time sorry for my poor english.

[moniquetz007]

Now tell us how you really feel!

[howardstone]

[majinbuu]

this word, jaleousy.....what does it mean...?

[murrrr]

[actingitup]

well I even picked jaleousy for my nickname:/

first I appolgize in advance for my poor english which is not my first language.

I just felt need to say something about this subject and maybe some of answers help me to get over it.

Huh, so there it is, I am 27 years old man, I used to have lot of girlfriends but never soem serious relationship, I find very hard to trust to other people so I need time to meet them well and unfortunately that time is too long for other side that always think I am cold blood and without emotions which I actualy don't show (I always keep it in myself) and everybody that knows me think I am just guy like that (sort of tough guy), but they don't know me. I find myself very emotinaly but hardly I express it. And than at the and of day I feel lonely.

I get used on that and never actualy have big personal problems until few days ago..... I meet one girl over big network meeting channel, we exchanged photos and phone numbers so we find out that we are attractive to each other. After couple of weeks we met each other as well and start to hangin' out and finnaly start to slep together. But than I get unexpected bussines trips and I was away 30 days, in that period I recived many sms-messagges from her but almost never respond because I get into some problems on that trip I mentioned (anyway I know I was total moron because of it). when I get back I felt hers disappointment, but I ignored it and contiunue to talk as always and never try to get on some higher level of relationship with her no metter I knew she was crashed in me. Again I was away for some time and I felt she starts to cold down on me and suddanly she met somebody else, somebody else who start to show great attention to her , to take care to her, to make dinner for her, to dedicate almost all time only for her and I said "ogg that is great I am so happy cause you finnaly found someone who cares who loves you etc...., I also asked about how he make her happy and after I hear all I saw that I never can't be like that and in some moment I was hit so hard, so badly with JALEOUSY. what a damn idiot I was, I askin' myself all the time..... I never felt anything similar in my life, I can't think , I can't work, I can't breath like before, I feel great pain inside and this is first time I tell that to someone cause I feel shame to share those feeling with people i know in real life. All I do last couple of days is listening songs like "Paul Weller - Wishing on the star, Marc Anthony - You sang to me, Shola Ama - You might need somebody, Lenny Kravitz - I belong to You, Barry White..."" and similar, while I listen those songs my eyes get wet and I am very sad in the moment but I listen again and again and again.

I can't stop blaming myself for what a damn idiot I was, and why I start to think so deep only after damage is done.

.....there is some other pathetic question I would like to ask but first I want to hear any of comment from people here what You think that might could help me to feel better.

one more time sorry for my poor english.

there might be some good reading in there, but to post a short story is just 2 much, next time break it down, strains the eyes

[jimk29]

this word, jaleousy.....what does it mean...?

The kid said that English was not his first language, and apologized from the get go.

[fouroneone]

nice fsn Scavy

[mimid]

well I even picked jaleousy for my nickname:/

first I appolgize in advance for my poor english which is not my first language.

I just felt need to say something about this subject and maybe some of answers help me to get over it.

Huh, so there it is, I am 27 years old man, I used to have lot of girlfriends but never soem serious relationship, I find very hard to trust to other people so I need time to meet them well and unfortunately that time is too long for other side that always think I am cold blood and without emotions which I actualy don't show (I always keep it in myself) and everybody that knows me think I am just guy like that (sort of tough guy), but they don't know me. I find myself very emotinaly but hardly I express it. And than at the and of day I feel lonely.

I get used on that and never actualy have big personal problems until few days ago..... I meet one girl over big network meeting channel, we exchanged photos and phone numbers so we find out that we are attractive to each other. After couple of weeks we met each other as well and start to hangin' out and finnaly start to slep together. But than I get unexpected bussines trips and I was away 30 days, in that period I recived many sms-messagges from her but almost never respond because I get into some problems on that trip I mentioned (anyway I know I was total moron because of it). when I get back I felt hers disappointment, but I ignored it and contiunue to talk as always and never try to get on some higher level of relationship with her no metter I knew she was crashed in me. Again I was away for some time and I felt she starts to cold down on me and suddanly she met somebody else, somebody else who start to show great attention to her , to take care to her, to make dinner for her, to dedicate almost all time only for her and I said "ogg that is great I am so happy cause you finnaly found someone who cares who loves you etc...., I also asked about how he make her happy and after I hear all I saw that I never can't be like that and in some moment I was hit so hard, so badly with JALEOUSY. what a damn idiot I was, I askin' myself all the time..... I never felt anything similar in my life, I can't think , I can't work, I can't breath like before, I feel great pain inside and this is first time I tell that to someone cause I feel shame to share those feeling with people i know in real life. All I do last couple of days is listening songs like "Paul Weller - Wishing on the star, Marc Anthony - You sang to me, Shola Ama - You might need somebody, Lenny Kravitz - I belong to You, Barry White..."" and similar, while I listen those songs my eyes get wet and I am very sad in the moment but I listen again and again and again.

I can't stop blaming myself for what a damn idiot I was, and why I start to think so deep only after damage is done.

.....there is some other pathetic question I would like to ask but first I want to hear any of comment from people here what You think that might could help me to feel better.

one more time sorry for my poor english.

so whats your 1st language?

[jaleousy]

well, croatian is my first language, and I notice that my writing was problem to others so might mod or admin can delete my post cause it seems no use for me if You only make fun with me and I have problem.

[georgym]

The kid said that English was not his first language, and apologized from the get go.

Some people on here are just thick-headed and can't process simple brain functions

[Kontrol]

im the most jealous person in the world and im proud of it. its mine ALL mine and no one elses

[majinbuu]

Some people on here are just thick-headed and can't process simple brain functions

yeah..and my thick head thinks its funny that not only did he spell it wrong in his post, but that his name is the same wrong spelled word....

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[argdiesel]

wow i feel bad for the little lad..how long ago did you move here from croatia... by the way in high school i went out with this hottttt croatian chick.. omg.. anyways thats another story

[ghhhhhost]

well, croatian is my first language, and I notice that my writing was problem to others so might mod or admin can delete my post cause it seems no use for me if You only make fun with me and I have problem.

ne seri pizdo jedna..nego smanji taj esej i nego ce ti odgovorit...

[jaleousy]

ne seri pizdo jedna..nego smanji taj esej i nego ce ti odgovorit...

"ne kužim koja je poanta tvog vrijeđanja mene?"

[coachjames]

Heh, well, this is really *not* the place to come if you want sympathy. It's pretty harsh in here, but fun, if you can take it.

I mean, you were an asshole to the girl and she leaves you and you were surprised and now you are upset about it? Dude, come on, what did you expect? I'm not making fun of you, I'm serious. You asked for our input, that's mine.

I know you asked for us to say something to make you feel better, but I'm afraid I can't do that. I can give you some good advice. Quit being so uptight. Why is it that you don't show emotion? What are you afraid of? Making a fool of yourself? If that is so, then you really don't know girls at all. Girls LOVE a guy who will make a fool of himself, especially to win her heart.

You afraid of getting hurt? If so, then your current path of hiding your emotions does not seem to be working, does it? Time to change it.

Well, I could go on, but first, answer the question, why do you hide your emotions?

[dgmodel]

wtf is a jaleousy~!?

[georgym]

wtf is a jaleousy~!?

a new flavor of jello puddings

[jaleousy]

Heh, well, this is really *not* the place to come if you want sympathy. It's pretty harsh in here, but fun, if you can take it.

I mean, you were an asshole to the girl and she leaves you and you were surprised and now you are upset about it? Dude, come on, what did you expect? I'm not making fun of you, I'm serious. You asked for our input, that's mine.

I know you asked for us to say something to make you feel better, but I'm afraid I can't do that. I can give you some good advice. Quit being so uptight. Why is it that you don't show emotion? What are you afraid of? Making a fool of yourself? If that is so, then you really don't know girls at all. Girls LOVE a guy who will make a fool of himself, especially to win her heart.

You afraid of getting hurt? If so, then your current path of hiding your emotions does not seem to be working, does it? Time to change it.

Well, I could go on, but first, answer the question, why do you hide your emotions?

Yes you absolutely right, I was damn moron, I desirved everybody make laugh on me. I wasn't affraid to get hurt, it is only that I was like that beofre and never fall in love, I have many girls left as frineds after few week of "adventure" but this time mostly because of my job (whole week 12 hours average) I dedicate not much time to her and I fucked it up bad.

No w I am listen everyday how that new guy is great and how carefull he is to her etc etc. that makes me puke but I handle it just to stay in any kind of connection with her.

And now if I say what I really feel to her I am affraid to look like total ass:/

[dgmodel]

Yes you absolutely right, I was damn moron, I desirved everybody make laugh on me.

yes.

[laptuaz]

[jaleousy]

pffft , lame

[coachjames]

So, you'd rather lose the possible love of your life than look like a total ass? And how would you look like an ass? Because you fucked it up before and then came to realize it and now want to make things right? That is called growth. Everybody fucks stuff up, only the smart people learn from it. If you are more worried about what other people will think than about getting her back, then this is definitely not the girl for you.

[anotherway83]

dude move the fuck on arready...why are you still hanging on to her? she's happy with the other guy, let it be that way. you seem to have learned from your mistakes, now go out and find yourself a brand new bitch!!