what the fuck are you talking about?!? raping someone, thoughts of raping someone, getting aroused by someone getting raped are major fucking issues and there is DEIFINITE need for professional help. do you think all the rapists, child molesters, serial killers of the world thought they had issues before they hurt someone for the first time? NO... they didn't. so how can you say that you don't. i mean a little rough sex is ok but actually getting off on "polluting" a women as you call it is sick. i'm not saying you're actually going to act on these impulses but come on now....