jy

i'll trade with you.. it aint so easy being me either.. i don't think its easy to live anyones life right now. So don't blame you're stupidities on anything but yourself. you chose to blow a handful of guys, you chose to fuck some random stranger, you chose to get that disgusting boob job these were all YOUR choice and no one else, don't blame this shit on anyone but yourself dear.

I wish I could say that were true. I know what he wants from a relationship and I know that he wants a serious commitement and often he accuses me of being the one who doesn't want to commit to him. Unfortunately, this boy doesn't stop and realize that he's got a girl who dreams about him in her future, that he's got a girl who wishes she could be in his arms at night, that he's got a girl who would give her life to save his. Yet he says that I don't love him enough. It kills me to hear that. Not only because I know it's absolute nonesense but because it makes me question my behaviour in a relationships. There are so many nights that i've walked away wondering what it is that i've done wrong, or how I could have reacted better and not have upset him. Truth is, he upsets me. He constantly does those little things to make me feel like second runner up. He values shopping above me, he values money and prestige above me and as hurtfull as it is to finally realize this he wouldn't do half the things I would for him. I don't think i've done anything wrong in the relationship. Granted I may have made my mistakes but I can tell you in all honesty that the meanest most hurtfull thing I've ever done is most probably either not return his phone calls or just told him i didn't want to speak to him at that particular moment. I listened to his bitching and whinning on and off for over a year now. I was never good enough but he never directly told me so, I didn't treat him right or so he said and to punish me he'd make me feel terrible. He even left me waiting for him the night before I was leaving on a trip since my uncle had passed away. The times I need him most are the times he's never there and the times he needs me most is the time i'm willing to give my own bloody sanity to make sure he is ok. This is long, and probably doesn't mean a bloody thing to anyone but given whats been going on in my life it just makes everything so much easier to have actually taken the time to type it all out.

misk you're too much

that to me is playing games. I've always faught for what I wanted until I realized that what I would get wasn't really worth it in the end. This "relationship" me and boy have was worth it : it made us both feel good, it completed me, it made me realize the beauty in love.. but it's time to walk away. i wouldn't ease back for the sake of making them realize what they're losing. in my case i've just given up completely, i'm not going to bother with his games anymore. He can swear that he didn't mean it, is going to change or whatever he has to say. but enough is enough already, i have feelings too and they should sure as hell be concidered. I haven't spoken to him at all since yesterday. Had this been 3 months ago i'd be so scared that it was over. Instead, today I spent the day with a good friend: not really doing anything but still having a blast. I guess I know it's over now since I can now picture my life without him. live and learn I guess.

that was my point exactly but it seems that everyone gives me a hard time when I make a comment. there is no excuse for being put in that situation, it's your choice. If you've been drinking, rolling or whatever you've got to be with people you trust. That's the first priority. Going out is fun but it's also fucking dangerous and unfortunately you can't trust anyone. I'm sorry to say but you wont get any sympathy from me because you could of just walked away..

that's exactly what he tells me to do, he tells me to calm down and relax. yesterday was the breaking point. We have been arguing lately and yesterday we both finally decided that we'd go out for a coffee to discuss what was going on. He called me early yesterday morning and asked me if I could meet him at a coffee shop and I agreed. I waited until 11:00 p,m last night for him to call and tell me to go meet him but he never did. I finally got frustrated and called his cellular phone and he was watching wrestling with some friends. I think that is so disrespectful on so many levels. He could have called and asked to reschedule, yes I might have been upset that he was pushing me aside but at least he had the common courtosey to tell me. Second it just goes to show him priorities in life : the second something better comes up he choses to push me aside and make me wait. He really seems to think that i'm going to let it go, that i'm going to get over it and let him continue doing this to me. He's wrong, the first couple of times this happened I figured it was a mistake. I told him how upset it made me and I told him I thought it was disrespectful. He apologized and said "you know I still love you" I wont let it go this time, I've had enough. I deserve to be respected, I deserved that phone call telling me that he was doing something else and most of all I deserve a guy who's going to understand when things upset me and try to work through them with me instead of just tell me "it's no big deal".

bwahahahaha but i meant that i understand where she's comming from. I'm having a hard time with my boy right now, not sure if I should keep pushing forward or just let him go. He doesn't do BIG things to disrespect me but the little things count more. The phone call, being there when he says he will and just small things like that are what make me question it all. Whoever said love should hurt was liening, and this is why I agree

damn i feel the exact same way

lmfao :laugh:

busted

i'm done too

mac gloss is like glue, it's way too sticky

so then you get up and walk the fuck away. I don't care if the guy was 23 or 43 if you didn't want to do it then you should have just gotten up and taken off.

what about me babe

so being "Wasted" is an excuse to have some random guy shove his cock in your mouth?

i didn't mean pad them to enhance them.. i meant pad em and protect em.

no offense babe but if that was shit i'd done i wouldn't post it for everyone to read.

when the time is right you'll both feel it and it wont feel awkward or anything so just take it slooooooowwwwwww and don't rush into anything.

well babe thats the prive of beauty.. try wearing a super padded bra when you go out.. that way if you do get elbowed or whatever it wont hurt as much

those are really bad pics of her

yeah i got screwed into a popular name, there we're 16 jennifers in my granduating class

indeed, i swear by it.

bump bump bump

i think oral sex is very intimate so in that respect i'd most probably wait.. but i dunno sex just wouldn't be right without a little play time before.