steph, I'm not judging you.. it's your life.. it's just that in my personal opinion, it's as disrespectful to yourself as it is to your bf to cheat. i cheated on a bf too. 3 years ago. more than that actually. i never felt WORSE in my life. i never felt lower or dirtier either. i promised myself that i will never do that again. and haven't done it since. never will either. but it's only me.