i have friends that i love, right now i love a friend very, very dearly, but there are still some things that i don't feel comfortable telling him. i'm almost there, though. i told him something i'd been afraid to tell him ever since i met him (which was in early 2001) last weekend, and he shrugged it off in one sentence - it was absolutely no big deal to him; i had been worrying over nothing. i really underestimated him, i guess :D . i had been so afraid that telling him too much about me might scare him away, but he showed that nothing changes in a real, caring friendship, just because someone tells a story or tells some secrets. we're both still the same people we always were: two people who have fun partying, watching tv, playing board games, just talking, hell - i even have fun when i'm asleep at his house ! he's brightened up my world in more ways than he knows . the trust issue is really all mine; i've shut down a little bit as i've grown older - just a little bit, though. as time goes by, i'm sure i'll get back on track and have a little more faith and better judgment.